This is in response to my last post and people's comments to it. I understand he will be missin' out but so will my baby. I know no matter what Carter has me, but I can see he's missing his dad. Sometimes I catch him looking at guys that resemble him and smile.
I want to call him and tell him to stop by but I shouldn't have to do all the work - he should be the one making the effort. I never said he can call every other weekend - if that - to check up on him. Time is going by so fast, he's missin out on his development. I invited him to our baby gym class every Tuesday and Thursday - he hasn't come yet. I want to give up but I just can't - for Carter's sake, and so he'll know one day that I tried my best to make things better for all of us.
Also, I still don't trust him when he takes him out. I don't want him over his girl's place playin house, and now he's always out of minutes on his phone and I refuse to call his girl to find out where he is - that's JUST INSANE to me. I just feel for Carter cuz I grew up wanting that father figure, and I guess I'm trying to avoid that for him.
Now I'm planning for his 1st birthday, and I told him he needs to start saving money to pay for the food - I just have this feeling he's either going to flake out at the last minute and I have to foot the bill, or he'll ask his girl to help him. Either way if he does that he's not invited to the party. I made sure he doesn't know the location until the day of, and OH MY GOODNESS, his girl better not make an appearance.
As a whole I just have a lot of pent-up frustration that I know I have to air out in his direction I want to tell him how he's hurt me and how he needs to get his shit together but if he doesn't listen to his own mother about these things I know he wouldn't give a damn about what I have to say. And I don't want to put my heart on the line to deaf ears.
I want to call him and tell him to stop by but I shouldn't have to do all the work - he should be the one making the effort. I never said he can call every other weekend - if that - to check up on him. Time is going by so fast, he's missin out on his development. I invited him to our baby gym class every Tuesday and Thursday - he hasn't come yet. I want to give up but I just can't - for Carter's sake, and so he'll know one day that I tried my best to make things better for all of us.
Also, I still don't trust him when he takes him out. I don't want him over his girl's place playin house, and now he's always out of minutes on his phone and I refuse to call his girl to find out where he is - that's JUST INSANE to me. I just feel for Carter cuz I grew up wanting that father figure, and I guess I'm trying to avoid that for him.
Now I'm planning for his 1st birthday, and I told him he needs to start saving money to pay for the food - I just have this feeling he's either going to flake out at the last minute and I have to foot the bill, or he'll ask his girl to help him. Either way if he does that he's not invited to the party. I made sure he doesn't know the location until the day of, and OH MY GOODNESS, his girl better not make an appearance.
As a whole I just have a lot of pent-up frustration that I know I have to air out in his direction I want to tell him how he's hurt me and how he needs to get his shit together but if he doesn't listen to his own mother about these things I know he wouldn't give a damn about what I have to say. And I don't want to put my heart on the line to deaf ears.
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